one of those days...

I really needed some extra motivation today because I had a huge list of things to do and did not even get half the things done. Oh well, I guess that will be on my list of things to do tomorrow. Let's hope that I am in a more motivated mood than I was today.
Today I have felt pretty frustrated for some reason. I don't know if I am just stressed out with school or missing home, or what is making me feel like this. Ugh...when I am in these moods I tend to take it out on other people which is not the best thing. I kind of went off on my sister today but things are fine now. I'm going to take it one step at a time and realize that everything is going to work out because it always does. No need to stress about it. Tomorrow is a new day and a fresh start and that is what I have to look forward to!

everything happens for a reason :)

When I decided to move out here, I had been planning on being a nanny because it is something that I love and good at. I had a lot of jobs possibilities lined up and met with families when I arrived. The two that worked best were really part time only like a couple hours one or two nights a week. I was doing that for a while but I still needed something a little more full time. My brother-in-law, Will said that his office had really needed help at their office and that they are looking to hire someone else. I jumped right on that and told him that I was totally interested. Will's brother Ryan was the one that would be hiring me and I was waiting for a phone call from him to talk about the job position. He me on Saturday and asked if I was interested and I said I was so he asked if I could start Monday(yesterday). I said of course and I was really excited and a little nervous because it is something new and that can always be a little intimidating. My uniform is navy blue scrubs and I was super excited about that because for some reason I have always wanted to wear scrubs...haha. Not to mention they are super comfortable and I won't ever have to think about what I am wearing to work. I will be working Mon, Wed, Frid from 8ish-7ish...it's an hour away so Will and I will drive together which will be nice. I would say my first day went well. It was a lot of information crammed into my brain but throughout the day I felt pretty comfortable with things considering it was my first day. The only thing that makes me pretty nervous is answering the phone because I do not know enough about everything to have questions asked of me that I do not know the answers to. It will just take time and a little practice though.
I have been so happy and content lately. It is a really good place to be in and I feel at peace that everything is playing out the way it should be. Taking this huge step out and moving across the country was something I never thought I could have done but up to this point and I am SO sure I made the right decision! Being content and happy is such a good place to be because it has been a while since I have felt like this. I had always needed someone else to make that happen. Now that I am finally alone and away from all that I can finally live life for me and not depend on anyone else for that happiness. I have learned that I can not depend on people, especially guys in my life, for my happiness. That has to come first before I will ever be ready to be in another relationship...even though that is the farthest thing from what I want or need but the funny thing is that I am very much okay with that. I can not even remember back to a time where I have felt this good inside!
Today we drove to Pittsburgh...we've been there quite a few times since I have been here. That's where all the fun things are and the city is absolutely beautiful! We went to eat lunch at CPK which just opened today and we were super excited about that because they do not have any around here. It may have been the first one in Pittsburgh, not sure. Then we went to this huge mall which is pretty much like South Coast. Loved it. I did a little shopping which is always fun. Then we ended out little Pittsburgh adventure with some yummy Jamba Juice which is also not near us. Pittsburgh is the place we have to go to get all out yummy cravings that are on pretty much every corner in California. We must really want it because we drive like 45 min to an hour to get it. Haha..it SO worth it though. I guess that's all for my update...

what is love?

"Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails."
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
This is the TRUE meaning of love!

Here I am

Well here I am almost a month later after my sister, mom, and I took our road trip across the country to my new home in PA. When we arrived here, it was a bit of a chaotic couple of weeks because we were in the process of moving to a new house from Greensburg to New Alexandria. We are finally all settled in and I am loving my own space. It is starting to feel a little like home. There has been quite a transition for me but I am starting to get into a routine and staying busy. I am working as a nanny part time for a few different families but am hoping to find something a little more full time but it will do for now.
Being out here has giving me a lot of time to think, maybe too much time, and I have had a whirlwind of emotions going through my mind. I really have to reason with myself and know that God showed me that this was where He wanted me to be so I need to make the most of it because He is teaching me a lot. It is important for me to know that the decisions I have made in the past were the right ones and I need to stop second guessing myself. Learning to be content being alone and learning what is truly most important in life if what I am figuring out. Life is too short to go look back on the past with regret. Every person in my past and every relationship I have been in has made me who I am today and I truly have learned so much about myself from each experience. Life is so much easier when you look at it as a learning experience and grow from it.
I am so excited and nervous for what is in store for me. Not knowing what is going to come next or what the next step in my life will be can be a little scary but I am ready for what lies ahead.